Saturday, November 23, 2002
2 a.m. Or Something Like It
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(transcribed from a napkin)
I can't figure out if "resolve" is the right word, but whatever it is, I have it. In the face of being told I'm too committed, too dedicated, too sure, I say "no." Assuredness is not concrete -- it is an emotional middle-ground. I know what I want: happiness. That's it. If my material promises scare you sometimes, please, don't let them... If I talk about family, dogs and white-picket fences, these are only temporary; you should (please) recognize the value of stability of mind. Whether happiness, or academe, or material wealth I seek, know that I have ambition and resolve -- resolve and the capacity to spin. The latter is -- combined with ever-increasing life experiences -- will keep me happy and satisfied for the next 70 years. I am unstoppable because I can always see the positive in anything. This is my most precious -- perhaps not most endearing -- quality that will assure my survival amidst generations of sheep, of followers, of those who have not found happiness, but only a poor likeness thereof. To the contrary, I have found you and, patiently, fate will surely not deny two hearts' mutual resolve. Surely...
S*
2002.11.20 - 2:47 a.m.
(transcribed from a napkin)
I can't figure out if "resolve" is the right word, but whatever it is, I have it. In the face of being told I'm too committed, too dedicated, too sure, I say "no." Assuredness is not concrete -- it is an emotional middle-ground. I know what I want: happiness. That's it. If my material promises scare you sometimes, please, don't let them... If I talk about family, dogs and white-picket fences, these are only temporary; you should (please) recognize the value of stability of mind. Whether happiness, or academe, or material wealth I seek, know that I have ambition and resolve -- resolve and the capacity to spin. The latter is -- combined with ever-increasing life experiences -- will keep me happy and satisfied for the next 70 years. I am unstoppable because I can always see the positive in anything. This is my most precious -- perhaps not most endearing -- quality that will assure my survival amidst generations of sheep, of followers, of those who have not found happiness, but only a poor likeness thereof. To the contrary, I have found you and, patiently, fate will surely not deny two hearts' mutual resolve. Surely...
S*
2002.11.20 - 2:47 a.m.
